Friday, July 23, 2010

Treating Ourselves. . . kindly

It's twilight, and the locusts sing me once again into that nighttime freedom I crave from morning until now. This envelope of darkness brings with it some soothing caress of sacred pardon. I am free at night and I have always been. During the day I often balk head to head against some kind of obstacle. My immobility, my single status, my financial strictures... all these play into my daily world, and I am fighting off frustrations, guilt, tears of regret and irritability... I chafe at living here at Mom's and I ache for something I cannot name.
And then she comes... twilight... And I'm here with myself, my forever truest ally, my own advocate in the darkness. I become the woman I search for every single day, the one I've pawed through the throngs to find since I've been a little child. Evening brings smiles of the soul; it gives me the peace of heart that soothes my cares. I begin to be good to myself again. We watch tv if we've taped something lovely. Tonight I have a brand new book, Eat, Pray, Love, that I will read as I snuggle in my comfortable bed with the Northern Nights sleeptop that I paid too much for.... I will fluff out the down coverlet, light some candles, and see what all the fuss has been over this book. I recall the disdain I felt for anyone who would give so much time to finding herself... but that was before I lost MYself... I get it now.
Another favorite way to spend an evening is with a Bible Study. I love this one by Kelly Minter, and of course, my very favorites are by Beth Moore..
So.....What do you do that is truly kind for youself? Be a dear and leave me a comment that describes your acts of friendship toward your own spirit.


Linda @ A La Carte said...

Being kind to yourself can be hard to do. I get so busy taking care of things, others and life. I think a book is a favorite way to treat myself. Just to get lost in reading is precious to me. A good movie and popcorn is another treat. Just to relax and enjoy being is important.

Becky K. said...

Spending time in a good book is one of the ways I treat myself well. There is always that edge of guilt that pulls at me...but it is the best of books that lets me brush it off like a nagging fly.

Nancy's Notes said...

Reading a good book, a manicure and pedicure, a stroll in a bookstore, sitting and watching the sunrise with a cup of coffee, taking in a lovely sunset, drive in the country and I love being outdoors,in the peace and quiet, taking in
the beauty of my flowers!

Take care of you.


Maggey and Jim said...

Taking a deserved trip to PRIMITIVES OF THE MIDWEST and meeting some awesome ladies, this is a treat that has been long coming and will make my soul sing.
May God lift you up.

melissa said...

I found you via a comment you made at Brocante Home. Just love this post...such sweetness, and the music just underscores it.

Thank you! :)